this little light of mine....

"If Jesus Christ is external to your life there will be times when the world will not see Him and hear Him and will not know you belong to Him. But if Christ be in you, living and reigning absolutely and you are obeying Him there will never be a moment when the truth will not be evident. You cannot hide Christ if once He comes within. If the light is there it simply must shine."

I read this quote in my devotions and it struck me-- this is who I want to be---I keep seeing a person standing with the light shining on them with no shadow--no darkness to hide in ;just light shining on them and through them.

This is my prayer Lord--that you would shine through me this week and next. Sometimes, I don't live as if you live in me--I walk in fear and distrust. I get angry instead of having compassion; selfish instead of giving. Thank you that you love me anyway. Sometimes, I get envious, feel overlooked, under-appreciated and just plain forgotten. Thank you that you have felt all these things, walked through them. When I feel this way, remind me that you love me, see the plan when I don't and that you are the God of the forgotten, down-hearted and weary.

I ask that you would give me the eyes to see the things that need to be seen. Help me to remain focused on you and who you are.

Luke 11:36 " If your whole body is full of light and none of it is dark, then you will shine bright as when a lamp shines on you."

may it be so--amen

Rivers

What happens to a friendship when you get busy--you drift apart. Sunday, I realized that I have been drifting--it didn't happen intentionally--it just happened. Kinda like the lazy river with a floaty... nowhere in particular--just drifting.. aimlessly going where the river goes. there have been times in the last few months that the river has been fast and furious--where I feel totally out of control and not sure where I will end up...just hanging on for dear life... there have been other times where it seems like I got stuck in the whirlpool of life and I was afraid it would suck me under... then there are the days where I just plain got stuck--the river was really shallow and there was no current to push me along.
I realized on Sunday that God was there all along holding on to me when I felt like I was going under, holding on when I felt like no one else gave a rip or even understood what was happening in my life; and even when I wasn't going anywhere-HE was there. I have been having a hard time hearing his voice with all the others clamoring for my attention--He is so patient and kind--the Good shepherd--gently calling me and leading me back to him--because he knows on my own I' m not going to make it. Ever so gently saying--Tammy I'm here--its going to be OK. Lie down, rest, be still ..I have a plan and its all under control even if you aren't. I know that He is working things out to the good ---and in the end that is all that is important .